Questions, Questions ??

Questions, questions, questions.....that's all I seem to be having lately. Should I go here? Should I go there? Should I do this? Should I do that? And the more and more I ask myself those questions the more and more I wonder.....whats the point?? I mean seriously what is the point. DO I REALLY HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER IT ANYWAYS. My destiny had already taken its path the day I came into this world. I didn't have a choice in it. I couldn't prevent or stop it. I didn't choose my parents. I didn't choose my hometown. I didn't choose my race or gender. It was all chosen without my say so or without my input. Simply put.....I cannot stop the inevitable. I cannot prevent what has already been set out for me. GOD is going to let me make whatever decision I make...he gives us freewill, but at the end of the day, he is going to have his way. Worrying and questioning ones life, is questioning and worrying that GOD doesn't know what he is doing. Why should I worry about tomorrow when I haven't even gotten through today. Like Jesus said," Let tomorrow worry for itself." So what is the point in trying to question a problem that has already been answered. What is that answer you might ask......I have no EARTHLY idea, and that is absolutely refreshing to me.


"J"

My Life Story.....

My life is that for which has yet to be determined. I live life with uncertainties. I live life according to the unknown. I live life without a plan...instead I choose to live with purpose, because lets face it...plans are about as useful as putting the pin back in the grenade. Some may view this way of life as erratic and undisciplined, but those are the same people you drive a society full of materialistic loopholes. That these people live a life according to societal means and totally miss out on the most priceless and irreplaceable thing the world has ever known......LIFE. I wake each morning not knowing what the day may bring. What challenges lies off in the distance. I truly believe that there are things of this world and of this existence that are beyond our means and measure." Man" lives and dies by one thing and one thing only...his WORD. I am just enjoying my short time in this experience and journey called..LIFE. Three things that I strive to live by...... Chase "Yourself" instead of the world. Conquer your "Purpose" instead of settling for the norm. Pursue your "Heart" instead of someone else. Stop existing and start living. My home is in Heaven. I'm just traveling through this world. And what a ride it has been thus far....what a ride indeed.


"J"

Lost and Found

It has always been you. When things go right, when things go wrong. When times are good, when times are rough. When I turn my back on you.....you are still there when I return . When I quit....you keep going. When I fail....you see me as a winner. When I'm ugly....you say," I never made anything that was nothing short of beautiful." At times I feel unworthy, but in your eyes I am priceless. When I am hurting, you are the one who eases my pain. When I am broken, you are the one who mends my spirit as whole. When I am lost....you always know where to find me. You seek me every morning, til nights ends....even when I don't look for you. I am not worthy of anything...and yet you still love me. I am full of sin, and still you are there to wash it all away. You have blessed me when I haven't deserved any of your grace. You are the only thing that will bring me true happiness, love, and comfort. You have blessed me with those that love me, but in the complexity of it all....it is your love that settles my heart, mind, and soul. I will turn to you for strength, and guidance....for let your will be done, not mine. I do love you............take my life as you would have it.

"J"

Joshua 1:5

Did we forget...."We will never forget"??

to whom it may concern:

Do you still remember what it felt like? You know, that feeling of uncertainty of what is going to happen next...."will we still be here, or has our time come to an end on this earth?" "Will i get to say goodbye to loved ones for the very last time. are my parents safe?" " Why is this happening to my country?" I'm sure we all had those questions on that Tuesday morning back in 2001.

Do you still remember what it felt like? How u couldn't help but stay glued to the horror that had unfolded right before our very eyes.sitting, watching, and waiting for the next set of attacks to be unleashed upon our tattered country. Laying your head to your pillow later that night; not knowing whether or not you would awake the next morning to more terror and death.

Do you still remember what it felt like? To see those innocent people leap to their death, so that they would not have to endure the pain of burning alive. To watch heroes going into a burning hell on earth, and to know that they probably would not return home alive. To see those burning towers fall so violently to the earth, and to know that whoever was left behind was gone forever......

Do you still remember what it felt like? The weeks and months after that terrible morning, how the country came to together as one. There was no divide amongst the people. there was no color barrier....no black...no white.There was no political parties....no republicans...no democrats. There was was no social class....no upper, or no lower classes. We were united as a people.....as a country....as ONE.

Do you still remember? Do you really remember...........how you couldn't even find an American flag on stock at your local stores. How you couldn't help but shed a tear at the sound of our national anthem being played at Baseball Parks through the country. And of course we all remember...."WE WILL NEVER FORGET"

Okay, we all remember all of those things right............wrong. I think we have forgotten what happen to our country that day. I mean, come on let's face it, the flags came down as quick as they had gone up. Instead of candle light vigils to honor the dead,we march in protest against those who have died with such honor. Instead of standing behind our government, we choose to take sides and point fingers at each other, and all i can ask is why? Why have we allowed the memory of those who were taken from us fade away. Do we need another 9/11 to bring us back together as one? The terrorist that carried out those attacks had one thing in mind, and that was to divide our great country. Well, if you ask me they succeed for the most part. Our country is in a civil war right now, and the country is divided now more than ever....who cares where Iraq's WMDs are, or if they even had them.....remember," You are either with us, or you are with the terrorist." Last time i checked Iraq was not with us.

Let us go back to the days were it didn't matter what political party you belong to, or what neighborhood you come from....for we are all AMERICANS! Let us not forget those who have gone before us so that we may live in freedom. Let's remember that our constitution was written in blood, and that it did not come at a cheap price. LET US NEVER FORGET that without unity there can be no real "United States." We should all be proud of who we are..........Americans. And as for the terrorist:

Forgiveness is between them and GOD. It should be our job to arrange the meeting.

Is His Dream.....a Reality Today??

Today marks the 40th year since Dr. Martin Luther King was cowardly gunned down in Memphis. He was truly an ambassador for love and peace for ALL. His dream was to see his people live in a place full of peace and harmony untied as one. To experience a society not divided by race, color, or creed, but rather united as one whole body. Dr. King lived his live by this philosophy and died trying to make it a reality for EVERYONE. His legacy lives on, and we recognize his continued struggle that is still ongoing throughout our country. With that being said, I have asked myself, “Would Dr. King be proud of what his dream has become today?”

Would Dr. King be proud to see more violence committed amongst his own people? Would Dr. King be proud of many “Civil Rights Leaders” using his name as a stepping stone for their own political careers? Would Dr. King be proud of over 118 all black university and colleges in the USA? Would Dr. King be proud to see that the most segregated hour in America occurs on Sunday mornings? Would Dr. King be proud that the demographics of this country still has not one….NOT ONE 50/50 split of blacks and whites living amongst themselves? Would Dr. King be proud to see the blacks and whites only march united as one to oppose a war? Would Dr. King shake his head in disappoint as to what his “Dream” as become today? Is this really what Dr. King spoke of when he said,

“I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will they be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood”

“This is the faith that I go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day."

"Let freedom ring. And when this happens, and when we allow freedom ring—when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children—black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics—will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual: "Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!”

I believe that yes, Dr. King fought for the equal rights of Blacks, but his “Dream” was to see HIS people be untied as one. HIS people were all of us…..Whites and Blacks. At no time did Dr. King want his people to be divided and segregated, but that is what we have done. All of us has still chosen to look at one and judge that person first, based on their race, rather by their character. We as a nation should be ashamed as to letting Dr. King’s “Dream” be diminished to political jargon rather than a pedal stool for peace and love for humanity. Let us remember and celebrate Dr. King legacy not by quoting old sermon lines and speeches, but rather putting his “Dream” into action. He died fighting for this “Dream” so the least we could do would be to let his “Dream” become our reality, for us and our childrens children.